Monday, September 13, 2010
Anticipation
This is just going to be a quick post because I am sitting in the airport waiting for the magical bus of the skies to take me back to Utah. I am excited for a few reasons: A) This is the advent of a potential writing career. Either I will succeed or fail, either way I get a small step closer to finding my niche in the world. B) I get to extend summer a little longer. Alaska has been cold and wet and I'm looking forward to some Utah sunshine. C) I thought I was done with ballroom dance. As mediocre as I was at this art form, I find that I miss it terribly. Perhaps I am still done, but at least now I'll be around people (girls) who won't mind breaking out into a random Cha-Cha with me. D) Girls should be reason number 1. In short, it has been a lonely summer. The End.
Sunday, September 05, 2010
Books
I've decided to keep a list of books that I've read during the year on the side of my blog. It has come to my attention, that I've read tons of books, so many that I can't remember them all. In an effort to combat this, I've started keeping a list of all the books I've read since mid-summer, with a short analysis (though you won't get that). I intend this to make me a more thorough reader. Also, I just think it will be cool to see how much I actually read on my own time.
In addition to this book list, I'd like to give a rating for each book, or perhaps a short review. Is there a gadget that allows this? Or must I write a separate blog entry for each book? Does anybody know of a slick way to do this?
In addition to this book list, I'd like to give a rating for each book, or perhaps a short review. Is there a gadget that allows this? Or must I write a separate blog entry for each book? Does anybody know of a slick way to do this?
Horizon, Come Swiftly!
I am frothing at the mouth to get back to Provo, Utah. I am ready to see (and date) attractive women, and I am excited about the freedom that I will have now that I am no longer a slave to homework, classes, and other such ilk.
My goal for the rest of the year (starting once I return to Provo and get comfortably moved in to my new pad) is to live as a full time writer. As of right now, that means treating writing as a full time job. I'm not sure exactly how I shall pursue this, but essentially that means I'll have to hit a certain word count or time limit for writing every day. Right now I'm thinking at least four hours of writing and close to that amount of reading every day (Stephen King says that a good writer reads as much as he (gender neutral) writes, essentially). This will be hard, because I'm horribly lacking in self motivation. I'll have to make certain that I abide by a schedule and go somewhere to write where I won't be distracted by internet, etc. . . . It will be hard, but I look forward to it. I've had a couple writing projects riding on my back for quite some time now, and I look forward to finishing them. Don't be surprised if I put up a couple progress bars somewhere on my blog.
People, I am on my way.
My goal for the rest of the year (starting once I return to Provo and get comfortably moved in to my new pad) is to live as a full time writer. As of right now, that means treating writing as a full time job. I'm not sure exactly how I shall pursue this, but essentially that means I'll have to hit a certain word count or time limit for writing every day. Right now I'm thinking at least four hours of writing and close to that amount of reading every day (Stephen King says that a good writer reads as much as he (gender neutral) writes, essentially). This will be hard, because I'm horribly lacking in self motivation. I'll have to make certain that I abide by a schedule and go somewhere to write where I won't be distracted by internet, etc. . . . It will be hard, but I look forward to it. I've had a couple writing projects riding on my back for quite some time now, and I look forward to finishing them. Don't be surprised if I put up a couple progress bars somewhere on my blog.
People, I am on my way.
Sunday, August 01, 2010
Peace? I hate the word, as I hate Hell. . .
I'm going to take a moment to go off on a little rant. Before you are exposed to my venom, watch this:
One of my friends posted this on Facebook. He was, as I understand, a little bit shocked by the content of this video. I think I am even more horrified than he was.
In short, if this video disappears from youtube, it contains an obvious religious "Christian" zealot who is proposing an international burn a Koran day (because of September 11th). At the end of the video he actually does what he is proposing.
This is wrong in all kinds of ways. First of all, the very idea of burning books is anathema to me. Probably because I'm a writer and a student of literature, and a lover of the idea of the knowledge that books contain. But even more horrifying, is the very violation of the teachings of Christianity displayed by this man. Was it not Christ who taught us to turn the other cheek? To love thy neighbor. . .and thy enemy? When did Christ ever teach the religious zealism and hate displayed by this man? (Barring the event at the temple--when Christ drove out those violating the sanctity of the temple--Christ always taught humility and charity).
The sad thing is that some of the responses to this post on Facebook contained, not supportive statements, necessarily, but justification for this hatemongering on the grounds that the Koran contains commandments to kill heathens etc. . .that because the Koran contains such clearly "wicked" statements it is justifiable to burn another group's religious text.
Christians who adhere to this idea clearly haven't studied the Old Testament enough, or if they have, they blatantly ignore some of the things that the Lord has commanded in the past (I can find some references to all this, but it is late at night, so I'll do it later).
I don't care if you disagree with another people's religious ideals and texts, but never is it Ok to defile them in such a way. As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (Mormon) I think I am a little more tolerant of other religions because of all the hardships that the early Mormons went through at the hands of so called "Christians."
There is no room for hate in Christianity unless it is the hate of sin. This man is advocating hate. And it is people like this that will destroy the world, should the world ever be destroyed in a global war.
One of my friends posted this on Facebook. He was, as I understand, a little bit shocked by the content of this video. I think I am even more horrified than he was.
In short, if this video disappears from youtube, it contains an obvious religious "Christian" zealot who is proposing an international burn a Koran day (because of September 11th). At the end of the video he actually does what he is proposing.
This is wrong in all kinds of ways. First of all, the very idea of burning books is anathema to me. Probably because I'm a writer and a student of literature, and a lover of the idea of the knowledge that books contain. But even more horrifying, is the very violation of the teachings of Christianity displayed by this man. Was it not Christ who taught us to turn the other cheek? To love thy neighbor. . .and thy enemy? When did Christ ever teach the religious zealism and hate displayed by this man? (Barring the event at the temple--when Christ drove out those violating the sanctity of the temple--Christ always taught humility and charity).
The sad thing is that some of the responses to this post on Facebook contained, not supportive statements, necessarily, but justification for this hatemongering on the grounds that the Koran contains commandments to kill heathens etc. . .that because the Koran contains such clearly "wicked" statements it is justifiable to burn another group's religious text.
Christians who adhere to this idea clearly haven't studied the Old Testament enough, or if they have, they blatantly ignore some of the things that the Lord has commanded in the past (I can find some references to all this, but it is late at night, so I'll do it later).
I don't care if you disagree with another people's religious ideals and texts, but never is it Ok to defile them in such a way. As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (Mormon) I think I am a little more tolerant of other religions because of all the hardships that the early Mormons went through at the hands of so called "Christians."
There is no room for hate in Christianity unless it is the hate of sin. This man is advocating hate. And it is people like this that will destroy the world, should the world ever be destroyed in a global war.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Children are Devils mostly.
My sister has had the opportunity to babysit a few children who have experienced a very disfunctional family. This is my off week from work so I was able to experience a solid 10 hour stretch of constant whining and tantrums. I can not believe that kids could act like this. SPANK THEM, SPANK THEM!!!! That was what I wanted to do at least. Good thing I'm not a father yet, eh? Anyway, that experience reminded me of this article from the Onion. Since the link won't work, I've copied and pasted the text of the article below the link.
http://www.theonion.com/articles/new-study-reveals-most-children-unrepentant-sociop,2870/
MINNEAPOLIS—A study published Monday in The Journal Of Child Psychology And Psychiatry has concluded that an estimated 98 percent of children under the age of 10 are remorseless sociopaths with little regard for anything other than their own egocentric interests and pleasures.
Enlarge ImageData shows that many seemingly innocent children—such as this one—are not to be trusted.
According to Dr. Leonard Mateo, a developmental psychologist at the University of Minnesota and lead author of the study, most adults are completely unaware that they could be living among callous monsters who would remorselessly exploit them to obtain something as insignificant as an ice cream cone or a new toy.
"The most disturbing facet of this ubiquitous childhood disorder is an utter lack of empathy," Mateo said. "These people—if you can even call them that—deliberately violate every social norm without ever pausing to consider how their selfish behavior might affect others. It's as if they have no concept of anyone but themselves."
"The depths of depravity that these tiny psychopaths are capable of reaching are really quite chilling," Mateo added.
According to the Hare Psychopathy Checklist, a clinical diagnostic tool, sociopaths often display superficial charm, pathological lying, manipulative behaviors, and a grandiose sense of self-importance. After observing 700 children engaged in everyday activities, Mateo and his colleagues found that 684 exhibited these behaviors at a severe or profound level.
The children studied also displayed many secondary hallmarks of antisocial personality disorder, most notably poor impulse control, an inability to plan ahead, and a proclivity for violence—often in the form of extended tantrums—when their needs were not immediately met.
"Children will use any tool at their disposal to secure gratification," Mateo said. "And as soon as the desire is fulfilled, be it some material want or simply an insatiable and narcissistic desire for validation, they quickly become bored and lose interest in their victims, all the while thinking only of satisfying whatever their next hedonistic craving might be."
Mateo added that even when subjects were directly confronted with the consequences of their inexplicable behavior, they had little or no capacity for expressing guilt, other than insincere utterances of "sorry" that were usually coerced.
Because children are so skilled at mimicking normal human emotions and will say anything without consideration for accuracy or truth, Mateo said that people often don't realize that they've been exploited until it is too late. Though he maintained that anyone can fall victim to a child's egocentric behavior, Mateo warned that grandmothers were especially susceptible to the self- serving machinations of tiny little sociopaths.
Despite the overwhelming evidence presented in the study, its findings have been met with heavy criticism from people who associate with children on a regular basis.
Batavia, NY resident and 38-year-old mother Mary Corcoran echoed the sentiments of many other adults who refuse to believe they are sharing their homes with merciless predators.
"Not my Jimmy. Just this morning, he told me I was the best mommy in the whole world," Corcoran said of her son, 5. "In fact, he's been such a sweet little boy this month that Santa just may bring him everything he asks for."
According to renowned child psychologist Dr. Pritha Singh, author of Born Without Souls, diagnosing preadolecents as sociopaths is primarily a theoretical interest, as the disorder is considered untreatable.
"We've tried behavior modification therapies, but children actually learn from our techniques and become even more adept at manipulating others while concealing their shameless misanthropy," Singh said. "Sadly, experience has taught us there is little hope for rehabilitation."
"Just look at the way most adults act," Singh added.
So, there it is. And IT IS ALL TRUE!
And, if you know anything about Lady Gaga, you might find this next blurb entertaining as well.
http://www.theonion.com/articles/lady-gaga-kidnaps-commissioner-gordon,17789/
http://www.theonion.com/articles/new-study-reveals-most-children-unrepentant-sociop,2870/
MINNEAPOLIS—A study published Monday in The Journal Of Child Psychology And Psychiatry has concluded that an estimated 98 percent of children under the age of 10 are remorseless sociopaths with little regard for anything other than their own egocentric interests and pleasures.
Enlarge ImageData shows that many seemingly innocent children—such as this one—are not to be trusted.
According to Dr. Leonard Mateo, a developmental psychologist at the University of Minnesota and lead author of the study, most adults are completely unaware that they could be living among callous monsters who would remorselessly exploit them to obtain something as insignificant as an ice cream cone or a new toy.
"The most disturbing facet of this ubiquitous childhood disorder is an utter lack of empathy," Mateo said. "These people—if you can even call them that—deliberately violate every social norm without ever pausing to consider how their selfish behavior might affect others. It's as if they have no concept of anyone but themselves."
"The depths of depravity that these tiny psychopaths are capable of reaching are really quite chilling," Mateo added.
According to the Hare Psychopathy Checklist, a clinical diagnostic tool, sociopaths often display superficial charm, pathological lying, manipulative behaviors, and a grandiose sense of self-importance. After observing 700 children engaged in everyday activities, Mateo and his colleagues found that 684 exhibited these behaviors at a severe or profound level.
The children studied also displayed many secondary hallmarks of antisocial personality disorder, most notably poor impulse control, an inability to plan ahead, and a proclivity for violence—often in the form of extended tantrums—when their needs were not immediately met.
"Children will use any tool at their disposal to secure gratification," Mateo said. "And as soon as the desire is fulfilled, be it some material want or simply an insatiable and narcissistic desire for validation, they quickly become bored and lose interest in their victims, all the while thinking only of satisfying whatever their next hedonistic craving might be."
Mateo added that even when subjects were directly confronted with the consequences of their inexplicable behavior, they had little or no capacity for expressing guilt, other than insincere utterances of "sorry" that were usually coerced.
Because children are so skilled at mimicking normal human emotions and will say anything without consideration for accuracy or truth, Mateo said that people often don't realize that they've been exploited until it is too late. Though he maintained that anyone can fall victim to a child's egocentric behavior, Mateo warned that grandmothers were especially susceptible to the self- serving machinations of tiny little sociopaths.
Despite the overwhelming evidence presented in the study, its findings have been met with heavy criticism from people who associate with children on a regular basis.
Batavia, NY resident and 38-year-old mother Mary Corcoran echoed the sentiments of many other adults who refuse to believe they are sharing their homes with merciless predators.
"Not my Jimmy. Just this morning, he told me I was the best mommy in the whole world," Corcoran said of her son, 5. "In fact, he's been such a sweet little boy this month that Santa just may bring him everything he asks for."
According to renowned child psychologist Dr. Pritha Singh, author of Born Without Souls, diagnosing preadolecents as sociopaths is primarily a theoretical interest, as the disorder is considered untreatable.
"We've tried behavior modification therapies, but children actually learn from our techniques and become even more adept at manipulating others while concealing their shameless misanthropy," Singh said. "Sadly, experience has taught us there is little hope for rehabilitation."
"Just look at the way most adults act," Singh added.
So, there it is. And IT IS ALL TRUE!
And, if you know anything about Lady Gaga, you might find this next blurb entertaining as well.
http://www.theonion.com/articles/lady-gaga-kidnaps-commissioner-gordon,17789/
Friday, July 02, 2010
Final Fantasy Top 10
(WARNING: This post might lead you the think that I am a geek. While this is true, to an extent, I assure you that my participation in video games has been marginal, and I have not been adversely affected by this hobby, socially or mentally. I am normal. . .and cool, really.)
I had so much fun doing my top 5 of current female superstars (which I think I will come back too in another post, later) that I want to do another list type blog. The motivation for this one comes with my recent accomplishment of beating the latest Final Fantasy game (XIII if you must know).
Final Fantasy XIII is the first offering from Square-Enix for the Final Fantasy franchise on the latest generation of console systems (PS3, XBOX 360, Wii). Considering that they have a track record of releasing excellent games for new systems, I had very high hopes for the newest game. (If you plan on playing the game later I shall spare you plot details. So I guess it's OK to read on. I'm not going to be that detailed anyway).
Final Fantasy XIII (hereafter FFXIII) does not disappoint when you play it. The graphics are phenomenal, which is to be expected from the PS3. The music is great. And the story is good. All these things are good. However, the best part of the game is the cast of characters. I think this is one of the most likeable casts for a FF game that I have ever seen. And the main character, Lightning, is AWESOME. She's pretty hot. What really helps here is the excellent cast of voice actors. In the past FF games some of the characters came across as annoying (Tidus from FFX anyone?) but here that isn't the case. Everyone comes across well. And Fang and Vanille have Australian accents. Awesome.
I do have some complaints. I think the game suffers most from the notable lack of side quests and exploration. There aren't really cities and towns to go visit in this game, which I find rather saddening. Shops are done through the save menu, which reminds me of shopping online: pretty pictures, but none of the actual thrill of shopping. Thus you never really get a sense of the world/people that you are trying to save. Because there isn't anything to really change the pace of the game (besides the awesome cinematic sequences), it often feels as if you are playing through one dungeon for the entire game. On the other hand, it's pretty hard to get lost or forget where you are going.
Anyway, I think that's all I wanted to cover in my description of FFXIII. Now, where does it fall in with the best FF games of all time? This is where my list comes in. It's going to be a top 10 list, just because I like FF that much.
10) Final Fantasy 1--This game, released for the original Nintendo, essentially created a new genre of game. It was pretty cool in its time.
The story was fairly lame--the characters had no story period!--but it was a start. I should add that the original (they've remade it a couple times) was incredibly hard.
9) FF 5--For the most part the Final Fantasy games 1-4 followed the same general format.
But Final Fantasy 5, never released in the US until recently, changed that with the introduction of the job system (to the US market. FF3, released only in Japan until very recently actually started the Job system). This little function introduced the possibility of character customization. It was awesome. You could change character classes between things like Knight, Black Mage, White Mage, Samurai, Thief. . .things of that nature. Awesome. Especially for geeks (Really, I'm not!!!).
8) FF 8--This was the second FF game for the original Playstation. The graphics were a significant step up from 7, and the story was pretty good. However, the Junction system was too complex and time consuming for most gamers, though I enjoyed the flexibility and potential it offered.
It also suffered from a rather weak cast of characters, though I did like Rinoa and Squall. It was a love story, which I liked. The ending movie was pretty long and very satisfying.
7) FF X-2--This was part II of Final Fantasy 10. On fist glance it seemed like this game was just riding the 10 cash cow, but it proved to be much deeper, and better than that. The game plays like Charlie's Angels meets Final Fantasy--which in my book is pretty cool. It also brought back the Job system from FF 5.
And it had an all female cast, though there were only three of them. Once you got through the first 1/4 of the game things really picked up. It did kind of annoy me that they changed Yuna's character into kind of a skank.
6) FF XII--This game came with very high expectations as the second standalone FF for the PS2. The graphics were superb, and the new gambit battle system was actually really good. The world was grand, large and well populated.
The story was a little bit weak, though the characters were cool. I think my main gripe was there less of an emotional attachment between the characters than some of the other FF games.
5) FF XIII--I've already spieled about this earlier. It's graphics and battle system are top notch. The story is good. The characters are awesome.
But the absence of cities, and side quests/games is a real let down for me. I don't think the world is as immersive as it could have been.
4) FF 4--
One of best old gen FF games, Final Fantasy 4 was originally released in the US as number 2. The story is excellent with a strong cast of characters (Except for the Bard. He sucks). Its music is also some of the best that I can remember coming out of tinny super Nintendo game music.
3) FF 6--Once we reach this point it's really a toss up between all these games. Final Fantasy 6 (it was 3 when originally released in the US) was as perfect as a FF game could have been.
The music, story, characters, and development system are all excellent. Throw in one of the coolest bad guys ever, the largest cast of any FF (that you can move in and out of your party at will), and an opera scene. . .nothing can get better.
2) FF 7--Oh, wait, I guess it can. Final Fantasy 7. . . take everything good about 6, and add better graphics, materia, and a freaking twisted story
, plus your favorite character dying midway through, plus a darker villain, plus two secret impossible bosses, and the best collection of side games ever (snowboarding? a motorcycle game?) And you have the best Final Fantasy ever, right?
1) FF X--Maybe not. FFX was not a perfect game. It was a little too linear. The freedom of the world map was lost. But it made up for that in the sinister nature of its story. Come on, the bad guy's name is Sin. . . how's that for a complex allegory? The characters were awesome, and there was a real love story, which was heightened by the fact that one of the characters was on a quest which she knew would claim her life. There is no other Final Fantasy that evokes the same emotional response as this one did. The ending was sad, which made me love it. Plus it had a great battle system, and a pretty fun little sidegame called Blitzball.
It also introduced voice acting to the FF franchise, which in retrospect was a real good idea. While this game was flawed, this is the one that I felt the most. And it had some awesome music. I could listen to the ending theme all day long.
I had so much fun doing my top 5 of current female superstars (which I think I will come back too in another post, later) that I want to do another list type blog. The motivation for this one comes with my recent accomplishment of beating the latest Final Fantasy game (XIII if you must know).
Final Fantasy XIII is the first offering from Square-Enix for the Final Fantasy franchise on the latest generation of console systems (PS3, XBOX 360, Wii). Considering that they have a track record of releasing excellent games for new systems, I had very high hopes for the newest game. (If you plan on playing the game later I shall spare you plot details. So I guess it's OK to read on. I'm not going to be that detailed anyway).
Final Fantasy XIII (hereafter FFXIII) does not disappoint when you play it. The graphics are phenomenal, which is to be expected from the PS3. The music is great. And the story is good. All these things are good. However, the best part of the game is the cast of characters. I think this is one of the most likeable casts for a FF game that I have ever seen. And the main character, Lightning, is AWESOME. She's pretty hot. What really helps here is the excellent cast of voice actors. In the past FF games some of the characters came across as annoying (Tidus from FFX anyone?) but here that isn't the case. Everyone comes across well. And Fang and Vanille have Australian accents. Awesome.
I do have some complaints. I think the game suffers most from the notable lack of side quests and exploration. There aren't really cities and towns to go visit in this game, which I find rather saddening. Shops are done through the save menu, which reminds me of shopping online: pretty pictures, but none of the actual thrill of shopping. Thus you never really get a sense of the world/people that you are trying to save. Because there isn't anything to really change the pace of the game (besides the awesome cinematic sequences), it often feels as if you are playing through one dungeon for the entire game. On the other hand, it's pretty hard to get lost or forget where you are going.
Anyway, I think that's all I wanted to cover in my description of FFXIII. Now, where does it fall in with the best FF games of all time? This is where my list comes in. It's going to be a top 10 list, just because I like FF that much.
10) Final Fantasy 1--This game, released for the original Nintendo, essentially created a new genre of game. It was pretty cool in its time.
The story was fairly lame--the characters had no story period!--but it was a start. I should add that the original (they've remade it a couple times) was incredibly hard.
9) FF 5--For the most part the Final Fantasy games 1-4 followed the same general format.
But Final Fantasy 5, never released in the US until recently, changed that with the introduction of the job system (to the US market. FF3, released only in Japan until very recently actually started the Job system). This little function introduced the possibility of character customization. It was awesome. You could change character classes between things like Knight, Black Mage, White Mage, Samurai, Thief. . .things of that nature. Awesome. Especially for geeks (Really, I'm not!!!).8) FF 8--This was the second FF game for the original Playstation. The graphics were a significant step up from 7, and the story was pretty good. However, the Junction system was too complex and time consuming for most gamers, though I enjoyed the flexibility and potential it offered.
It also suffered from a rather weak cast of characters, though I did like Rinoa and Squall. It was a love story, which I liked. The ending movie was pretty long and very satisfying.
7) FF X-2--This was part II of Final Fantasy 10. On fist glance it seemed like this game was just riding the 10 cash cow, but it proved to be much deeper, and better than that. The game plays like Charlie's Angels meets Final Fantasy--which in my book is pretty cool. It also brought back the Job system from FF 5.
And it had an all female cast, though there were only three of them. Once you got through the first 1/4 of the game things really picked up. It did kind of annoy me that they changed Yuna's character into kind of a skank. 6) FF XII--This game came with very high expectations as the second standalone FF for the PS2. The graphics were superb, and the new gambit battle system was actually really good. The world was grand, large and well populated.
The story was a little bit weak, though the characters were cool. I think my main gripe was there less of an emotional attachment between the characters than some of the other FF games.5) FF XIII--I've already spieled about this earlier. It's graphics and battle system are top notch. The story is good. The characters are awesome.
But the absence of cities, and side quests/games is a real let down for me. I don't think the world is as immersive as it could have been.4) FF 4--
One of best old gen FF games, Final Fantasy 4 was originally released in the US as number 2. The story is excellent with a strong cast of characters (Except for the Bard. He sucks). Its music is also some of the best that I can remember coming out of tinny super Nintendo game music.3) FF 6--Once we reach this point it's really a toss up between all these games. Final Fantasy 6 (it was 3 when originally released in the US) was as perfect as a FF game could have been.
The music, story, characters, and development system are all excellent. Throw in one of the coolest bad guys ever, the largest cast of any FF (that you can move in and out of your party at will), and an opera scene. . .nothing can get better.2) FF 7--Oh, wait, I guess it can. Final Fantasy 7. . . take everything good about 6, and add better graphics, materia, and a freaking twisted story
, plus your favorite character dying midway through, plus a darker villain, plus two secret impossible bosses, and the best collection of side games ever (snowboarding? a motorcycle game?) And you have the best Final Fantasy ever, right?1) FF X--Maybe not. FFX was not a perfect game. It was a little too linear. The freedom of the world map was lost. But it made up for that in the sinister nature of its story. Come on, the bad guy's name is Sin. . . how's that for a complex allegory? The characters were awesome, and there was a real love story, which was heightened by the fact that one of the characters was on a quest which she knew would claim her life. There is no other Final Fantasy that evokes the same emotional response as this one did. The ending was sad, which made me love it. Plus it had a great battle system, and a pretty fun little sidegame called Blitzball.
It also introduced voice acting to the FF franchise, which in retrospect was a real good idea. While this game was flawed, this is the one that I felt the most. And it had some awesome music. I could listen to the ending theme all day long.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Locked in Iso.
So here I am in Alaska. An outdoor paradise, right? I should be happy about that, and I am. The problem is that I spend every moment of my job out enjoying this paradise. I literally live in the wilderness for eight days in a row. Thus when I come home for my six days off, I'm actually a little tired of living in a tent and eating camp food. What I really want to do is get out. But I can't. I'm stuck in the social black hole of the world. There is nothing to do here, in Glennallen, besides doing outdoor things. And that sucks. I miss Utah.
Basically, I'm suffering from a minor melancholy because I'm extremely bored right now. I would like to go see a movie, do some ballroom dancing. . .things of that nature. But I can't, because this place is the place where bachelors go to die (or turn into crochety old mountain men).
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